Wednesday, May 24, 2006
i`m upset. my soul`s overturned. take me away to neverland.
do i really possess a serious attitude and psychological problem? enlighten me.
am i not good enough to all?
just take me away with all the crap. it`s ENOUGH!
12:14 AM
i`m upset. my soul`s overturned. take me away to neverland.
do i really possess a serious attitude and psychological problem? enlighten me.
am i not good enough to all?
just take me away with all the crap. it`s ENOUGH!
posted by SERENiFiED PRiNCESS on 12:14 AM
Sunday, May 21, 2006
blogging less nowadays. loads from work and troubles from you and me. simply restless. my entire life`s full of unworthy dumbs. i need some breathing space all right. i`m craving for some real desserts and not wriggling up stressed. to you people, it may seem like i`m up to something but let me clarify, I`M NOT!!! the dreams i have now are seriously reflections from reality. the cruel end. give me a break guys. and sorry, i`ve wronged *you in the past. it seems like i see the perfect picture now. on a clearer perspective point of view. though it`s hard to say anything already but i`m just apolegetic that`s all.
watched "The Da Vinci Code" with delrick few hours ago. thanks to delrick that i can get to watch it. simply my cuppa` tea. and the cinema was horrendously packed with "ants". queue was long, seats were almost fully occupied. my goodness gracious. looks like this movie`s gonna create a new box office record. =) i thought it was a rather nice show. but truly depends on your taste though.
i`m gonna wake up in 2 hours time to prepare for the big walk thingy. guess i`m tied to a short entry this time. catch up laters..
2:02 AM
blogging less nowadays. loads from work and troubles from you and me. simply restless. my entire life`s full of unworthy dumbs. i need some breathing space all right. i`m craving for some real desserts and not wriggling up stressed. to you people, it may seem like i`m up to something but let me clarify, I`M NOT!!! the dreams i have now are seriously reflections from reality. the cruel end. give me a break guys. and sorry, i`ve wronged *you in the past. it seems like i see the perfect picture now. on a clearer perspective point of view. though it`s hard to say anything already but i`m just apolegetic that`s all.
watched "The Da Vinci Code" with delrick few hours ago. thanks to delrick that i can get to watch it. simply my cuppa` tea. and the cinema was horrendously packed with "ants". queue was long, seats were almost fully occupied. my goodness gracious. looks like this movie`s gonna create a new box office record. =) i thought it was a rather nice show. but truly depends on your taste though.
i`m gonna wake up in 2 hours time to prepare for the big walk thingy. guess i`m tied to a short entry this time. catch up laters..
posted by SERENiFiED PRiNCESS on 2:02 AM
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
complexity fits the best. i do not want to wander off anymore. how come i don`t feel a thing? am i still freezing cold after the devastation i convulsed from the previous experiences? i should say i`m just trying to rescue myself from the vulnerablities. i swerved and meander so hard just to avoid the bumps the obstructions may inflict upon my soul.
i do not have the charisma you all say or think i may possess. i simply am what i am. i do not want to bruise myself and you. we all know amidst the redolence and temptations of love hid the darkest and scariest side. and the degree of love can be very different, perhaps you've mixed it up? i`m nt reproaching you, i just want to seek clarifications. there`s certainly no right or wrong answers. in my heart, in my mind it just resounds. i`ve picked up alot along the way. perhaps it`s my conventional of doing things. i do not want to lose a friend in the end again. i`m scarred for the rest of my life. definitely i value the care and concern you`ve shown, but i did not ponder upon the possibility of us. i really ran out of words, dude. thank you i would want to say, for your presence and for your companionship. you are nice, really nice, so do not ever look down on yourself. trust me, i`m not worthy of you. if not, why would they choose to let go of me?
i don`t know am i right or wrong now..
i`m blurred.
ARGHS!!!!
i feel darn bad. ='(
12:56 AM
complexity fits the best. i do not want to wander off anymore. how come i don`t feel a thing? am i still freezing cold after the devastation i convulsed from the previous experiences? i should say i`m just trying to rescue myself from the vulnerablities. i swerved and meander so hard just to avoid the bumps the obstructions may inflict upon my soul.
i do not have the charisma you all say or think i may possess. i simply am what i am. i do not want to bruise myself and you. we all know amidst the redolence and temptations of love hid the darkest and scariest side. and the degree of love can be very different, perhaps you've mixed it up? i`m nt reproaching you, i just want to seek clarifications. there`s certainly no right or wrong answers. in my heart, in my mind it just resounds. i`ve picked up alot along the way. perhaps it`s my conventional of doing things. i do not want to lose a friend in the end again. i`m scarred for the rest of my life. definitely i value the care and concern you`ve shown, but i did not ponder upon the possibility of us. i really ran out of words, dude. thank you i would want to say, for your presence and for your companionship. you are nice, really nice, so do not ever look down on yourself. trust me, i`m not worthy of you. if not, why would they choose to let go of me?
i don`t know am i right or wrong now..
i`m blurred.
ARGHS!!!!
i feel darn bad. ='(
posted by SERENiFiED PRiNCESS on 12:56 AM
Monday, May 15, 2006
this long weekend was rather busy for me.
thursday night i was at k box singing. i love to sing with my awful voice. and i really miss the microphone. there were may, raymond, angela, hc and me. reached home with a dry throat at about 3.15am.
friday? i crossed over to JB with dar, meihua, angela, kangming, joseph and his gf. darn, there was this super long queue which made us wait super long and everyone was super frustrated with the super slow service. but the trip overall was fun i should say. but was rather disappointed `cos i cant get anything i want. the shoes are either not of my size or last pair. saddened. i need a pair of sneakers and ladies slippers(with low heels) badly. =((( anyways, watched POSEIDON with the gang. better than titanic i felt. i was kinda catching my breath amidst the show when the actors and actresses were underwater. i was too engrossed i think. =pPp
anyways, my basic theory test is on this coming tuesday. studied with zhutou at compass point yesterday and today. don`t know an idiot like me with no common sense can make it or break it. lols! on a lighter note, i got myslef an adidas pouch today. pink one! love it to bits now. but i guess after 2 weeks i'll treat it like trash. haha!!! let`s see.
tomorrow`s gonna be a working day again. awWw...
dreams are so far from reality, are`nt they? dreams won`t come true, will they? i can`t give myself another excuse anymore. it`s getting on my nerves.
blog again someday. miss me jenna and dar!!!
1:11 AM
this long weekend was rather busy for me.
thursday night i was at k box singing. i love to sing with my awful voice. and i really miss the microphone. there were may, raymond, angela, hc and me. reached home with a dry throat at about 3.15am.
friday? i crossed over to JB with dar, meihua, angela, kangming, joseph and his gf. darn, there was this super long queue which made us wait super long and everyone was super frustrated with the super slow service. but the trip overall was fun i should say. but was rather disappointed `cos i cant get anything i want. the shoes are either not of my size or last pair. saddened. i need a pair of sneakers and ladies slippers(with low heels) badly. =((( anyways, watched POSEIDON with the gang. better than titanic i felt. i was kinda catching my breath amidst the show when the actors and actresses were underwater. i was too engrossed i think. =pPp
anyways, my basic theory test is on this coming tuesday. studied with zhutou at compass point yesterday and today. don`t know an idiot like me with no common sense can make it or break it. lols! on a lighter note, i got myslef an adidas pouch today. pink one! love it to bits now. but i guess after 2 weeks i'll treat it like trash. haha!!! let`s see.
tomorrow`s gonna be a working day again. awWw...
dreams are so far from reality, are`nt they? dreams won`t come true, will they? i can`t give myself another excuse anymore. it`s getting on my nerves.
blog again someday. miss me jenna and dar!!!
posted by SERENiFiED PRiNCESS on 1:11 AM
Thursday, May 11, 2006
HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY TO MY PEARLIN MUMMY.
sorry lehs, so late then came online to write this!
1:36 AM
HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY TO MY PEARLIN MUMMY.
sorry lehs, so late then came online to write this!
posted by SERENiFiED PRiNCESS on 1:36 AM
Sunday, May 07, 2006
accomplished 2 trips within 2 days. even after that, i`m not surprised i`m still unhappy. don`t question me "who, what, where, when, how." i`ve told the some of the parties i`ve wished to informed. the rest have absolutely no rights to trample on my territories. and i`m defensive now i swear. who dares to provoke me now shall be sentenced to death in my heart. stormy turbulent seas shall never die. to those who had betrayed my trust, thanks. you made me see the ugly side of the world again. to those who had speared my heart, your name will forever be smeared in my mind. i guarantee.
abit of updates about the 2 trips i`ve been to...
went to the zoo with brother matt. the zoo trip was nice. i finally got to see pigs. cute fat ones. i even snapped a picture of its butt. *eeEwwW* roamed the entire zoo i supposed, both on tram and on foot. no emperor penguins to see though. mayba all of them returned to the antartic or perhaps migrated to the bird park. there were only some not-so-appealing breed of the penguins left. rather disappointed. still remembered that time i went to the bird park there were so many penguins. so majestic! but then, there are still other animals around. but why no koala bears? =(( i was attracted to the kaola in the movie the wild so i thought i could catch a glimpse of it in the zoo, but no. -.- hmmm... i saw some kids playing at the designated playing areas. they all look so adorable and 'real'. just that something inside them attracts my attention. i love to see kids play. so natural.
ubin trip was even more exciting. gone with zhutou, seok zhi, jiani, joseph and kangming. but one bad thing, i`m aching all over now because of the bumpy stony sandy winding roads while cycling around the island. and the mosquito bites were super duper powerful as well. but it`s nice to go back to somewhere i`ve long to visit. we had fun photo snapping and posing. and doing stupid things together. =))) i want to go back again someday. and ya, there was this uncle whose house had a wild boar which was named "ah jack". so cute!! but it was rather picky too. only loves good food like potato chips and meat. we rested awile before proceeding back to somewhere near the jetty to feast! chilli crabs and cereal prawns were tip top! and we were all like water pails. drank and drank non stop while eating. kinda misses np days hor zhutou???
today is horrible. just horrible. monday blues. i believe and i admit that i still felt traumatised. i just don`t feel right. emotionally and mentally. after... and ... waking up from a land of broken hopes and dreams. alone. every now and then.
p.s: thanks IMF Agent Raymond Chan for his sushi just now. =) and thanks for not running away that night when you saw my ugly side. it did scare you i bet. *~@#^*$@#%^& as i`ve said, a friend in need is a friend indeed. =)
when is friday coming. JB????
10:18 PM
accomplished 2 trips within 2 days. even after that, i`m not surprised i`m still unhappy. don`t question me "who, what, where, when, how." i`ve told the some of the parties i`ve wished to informed. the rest have absolutely no rights to trample on my territories. and i`m defensive now i swear. who dares to provoke me now shall be sentenced to death in my heart. stormy turbulent seas shall never die. to those who had betrayed my trust, thanks. you made me see the ugly side of the world again. to those who had speared my heart, your name will forever be smeared in my mind. i guarantee.
abit of updates about the 2 trips i`ve been to...
went to the zoo with brother matt. the zoo trip was nice. i finally got to see pigs. cute fat ones. i even snapped a picture of its butt. *eeEwwW* roamed the entire zoo i supposed, both on tram and on foot. no emperor penguins to see though. mayba all of them returned to the antartic or perhaps migrated to the bird park. there were only some not-so-appealing breed of the penguins left. rather disappointed. still remembered that time i went to the bird park there were so many penguins. so majestic! but then, there are still other animals around. but why no koala bears? =(( i was attracted to the kaola in the movie the wild so i thought i could catch a glimpse of it in the zoo, but no. -.- hmmm... i saw some kids playing at the designated playing areas. they all look so adorable and 'real'. just that something inside them attracts my attention. i love to see kids play. so natural.
ubin trip was even more exciting. gone with zhutou, seok zhi, jiani, joseph and kangming. but one bad thing, i`m aching all over now because of the bumpy stony sandy winding roads while cycling around the island. and the mosquito bites were super duper powerful as well. but it`s nice to go back to somewhere i`ve long to visit. we had fun photo snapping and posing. and doing stupid things together. =))) i want to go back again someday. and ya, there was this uncle whose house had a wild boar which was named "ah jack". so cute!! but it was rather picky too. only loves good food like potato chips and meat. we rested awile before proceeding back to somewhere near the jetty to feast! chilli crabs and cereal prawns were tip top! and we were all like water pails. drank and drank non stop while eating. kinda misses np days hor zhutou???
today is horrible. just horrible. monday blues. i believe and i admit that i still felt traumatised. i just don`t feel right. emotionally and mentally. after... and ... waking up from a land of broken hopes and dreams. alone. every now and then.
p.s: thanks IMF Agent Raymond Chan for his sushi just now. =) and thanks for not running away that night when you saw my ugly side. it did scare you i bet. *~@#^*$@#%^& as i`ve said, a friend in need is a friend indeed. =)
when is friday coming. JB????
posted by SERENiFiED PRiNCESS on 10:18 PM
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
another sleepless night i bet. having a sore mood. really a sore loser. yes, perhaps out there, are some people who resent me, for certain based reasons, or am i over sensitive. enlighten me please. and maybe i should`nt give it a care, should i? this have been my weakest point. i seek to but always hold back. for my own unclassified reasons or to any passers-by, excuses. i`m undaunted in the face of truth. people may have misjudeged my rightfully true intentions. but i have a very nice friend who told me that no matter how the outside world may resent me, he`ll stand by me `cos he sees the whole picture. i reckoned what he said as truth but i cannot forsake reality, especially with my heavy and rooted emotions. nonetheless, i still thank him. to sidetrack abit, i sincerely hope what we 4 discussed the previous night can be put off to work but seems like they are fruitless efforts gone down to waste. we are all lethargic, mentally and physically. can you see how deep the valley is? it`s because i`ve fell that`s why i tried to stop you before you followed my footsteps. the situation yesterday typically triggers my emotions. the innest. friendship and kinship. have you understood dear? i do not know where else can i be of any service anymore. i`ve got loads to express but still pending. `cos that`s my second weakest point. soft-hearted-ness. he knows i`ve really dump my whole soul salvaging any weakage and servicing every leak. i really appreciate that apprehension dude. but you resting well is still ultimately the most important phase. get well real soon.
loads to speak to dar as well, i do not want us to drift apart. =) i have nice friends, buddies, brothers, sisters and parents. but can i appeal for light-hearted-ness??? another thing, i`ve been displaying more mistakes in my work these days. when can i improve. i do not want to get may into deep s**t `cos of my recklessness. she does`nt mind but i mind. i have to make sure i adapt to all these as soon as possible. pretty soon. i just realised something. does my very own sister even looks down on me??? do i have to kneel down and say sorry when in the 1st place i already tried my best to help and not to please anyone.
time flies... in a twinkle of an eye... can i have my fairytale*???
-i imagine myself under a starry starry night, just me myself and i.
if only life starts and ends here...
2:06 AM
another sleepless night i bet. having a sore mood. really a sore loser. yes, perhaps out there, are some people who resent me, for certain based reasons, or am i over sensitive. enlighten me please. and maybe i should`nt give it a care, should i? this have been my weakest point. i seek to but always hold back. for my own unclassified reasons or to any passers-by, excuses. i`m undaunted in the face of truth. people may have misjudeged my rightfully true intentions. but i have a very nice friend who told me that no matter how the outside world may resent me, he`ll stand by me `cos he sees the whole picture. i reckoned what he said as truth but i cannot forsake reality, especially with my heavy and rooted emotions. nonetheless, i still thank him. to sidetrack abit, i sincerely hope what we 4 discussed the previous night can be put off to work but seems like they are fruitless efforts gone down to waste. we are all lethargic, mentally and physically. can you see how deep the valley is? it`s because i`ve fell that`s why i tried to stop you before you followed my footsteps. the situation yesterday typically triggers my emotions. the innest. friendship and kinship. have you understood dear? i do not know where else can i be of any service anymore. i`ve got loads to express but still pending. `cos that`s my second weakest point. soft-hearted-ness. he knows i`ve really dump my whole soul salvaging any weakage and servicing every leak. i really appreciate that apprehension dude. but you resting well is still ultimately the most important phase. get well real soon.
loads to speak to dar as well, i do not want us to drift apart. =) i have nice friends, buddies, brothers, sisters and parents. but can i appeal for light-hearted-ness??? another thing, i`ve been displaying more mistakes in my work these days. when can i improve. i do not want to get may into deep s**t `cos of my recklessness. she does`nt mind but i mind. i have to make sure i adapt to all these as soon as possible. pretty soon. i just realised something. does my very own sister even looks down on me??? do i have to kneel down and say sorry when in the 1st place i already tried my best to help and not to please anyone.
time flies... in a twinkle of an eye... can i have my fairytale*???
-i imagine myself under a starry starry night, just me myself and i.
if only life starts and ends here...
posted by SERENiFiED PRiNCESS on 2:06 AM
Monday, May 01, 2006
life seems to be so strong yet so weak. things are forever so near yet so far. when can we catch up???
the long weekend is soon going to be over. aww... i look forward to vesak day`s holiday. `cos most prob may be going over to JB! there are a few movies i wanna catch. THE WILD AND THE DA VINCI CODE especially. i shall check whether JB has time slots for these 2 shows. then we can go on a movie cum(*raymond don`t scold me) shopping marathon. raymond`s so boring, says can watch the wild with me then in the end he KO and he`s lazy! what a pig! lols... join my pig family lahs.. the weather is so dark and gloomy now, wondering if wanting still wants to go jogging. i`m kinda lazy due to the lazy weather but if she`s still going i'll go too since i`ve already promised her.
hmmm... in dead hunger now. no breakfast no lunch. dinner i must eat till i bloat. lols.. signing off 1st to get some rest. hope to be back to blogging soon if i`m free. =)) take care folks.
4:42 PM
life seems to be so strong yet so weak. things are forever so near yet so far. when can we catch up???
the long weekend is soon going to be over. aww... i look forward to vesak day`s holiday. `cos most prob may be going over to JB! there are a few movies i wanna catch. THE WILD AND THE DA VINCI CODE especially. i shall check whether JB has time slots for these 2 shows. then we can go on a movie cum(*raymond don`t scold me) shopping marathon. raymond`s so boring, says can watch the wild with me then in the end he KO and he`s lazy! what a pig! lols... join my pig family lahs.. the weather is so dark and gloomy now, wondering if wanting still wants to go jogging. i`m kinda lazy due to the lazy weather but if she`s still going i'll go too since i`ve already promised her.
hmmm... in dead hunger now. no breakfast no lunch. dinner i must eat till i bloat. lols.. signing off 1st to get some rest. hope to be back to blogging soon if i`m free. =)) take care folks.
posted by SERENiFiED PRiNCESS on 4:42 PM